My minds been totally clean from all these poisons but here i am still feeling the exact same way. I dont wanna meet new people, i dont wanna talk to old people, i just cant. All the people that ive known dont know me, and all the new ones that i would like to see have heard about me and when we do conversate its only with our eyes. Judgment is it. This is the place where i come to escape when nothing works, i isolate myself but here im me and this is who i am. I think its crazy that most of everyone has forgotten me, when i leave it’d be the same if i died its be the same, and if i go to prison itd be the same. Ive just had a shitty year. Years* day, life. i dont say this shit ever but right now its truly getting to me. There’s no place for me to go and im just holding it by myself. I dont know if i can for too long.
Where’s that detach switch, i need it & a cigarette but i dont smoke. What do i need. I wanna live what i had in the past but i dont wanna live anymore. Im so anxious to move, maybe meet new people, how do i react to old faces. I dont. I dont do anything. I’ll do something now and ill do something later but first is first. I need to detach from all this.